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Still I look to find a reason to believe [17 Mar 2006|04:36pm]
[ mood | sick ]

I hate being sick. Its feels absolutely horrible. I spent my morning yesterday throwing up and the rest of yesterday and today feeling like I could again. Its gross. On a better note I got Red Sox tickets last weekend. My dad and I are going on April 19 to watch them play against the devil rays. This is going to be my first game. I'm excited. We're gonna be sitting right near Manny so I can yell at him if he does anything stupid. Ok well I'm gonna go now. Til next time, stay zen.

Let your darker side give in

Its been awhile [25 Feb 2006|04:20pm]
[ mood | pessimistic ]

Ok so heres the short version of what has happened since I last updated this thing. Um... I turned 20, big freakin deal. I worked alot. Christmas came and went. New Years came and went. Still more working. And last week I quit my job. Never ever work at Wal-mart. The pay is good but they treat you horribly. It just got to the point where I was tired of being told that when anything goes wrong its because of me or if things don't get done its my fault. I came into work one day and they gave me a list a mile long to do and I did everything on that list but 1 thing and the next day there was a list of things I didn't do or didn't do well enough for them. I was extrememly pissed but I let it go. Then last Saturday there was a note saying I didn't make things look nice enough for them and that management would be watching me at all times and I just snapped. I had enough so I quit. I went out of my way for these people and got nothing in return. I was the one who was there almost every damn day. I was the one to pick up extra hours when someone quit. I was the one who let them do whatever they wanted with my schedule. I was the one who took all their crap and still came to work even though I would have rather walked barefoot on broken glass and I still got treated like everything in the world was my fault. So now I have no job and I don't quite know where to start looking. I know I want to go to school at Mcintosh but I haven't decided what to go for. Its either going to be crime seen technology or medical assisting. I just haven't figured out what I really want to do with my life and trying to make up my mind as fast as I can isn't helping much. Lifes tough and I don't have a helmet. So the last time I updated I had no life, no friends, and a job. Now I have no life, and no friends and now no job. So not all that much has changed. Well I'm going to go and watch the snowfall. Til next time, stay zen.

♥ Geri ♥

Let your darker side give in

I want to break free [01 Dec 2005|05:50pm]
[ mood | melancholy ]

Its been a little while since I've updated but nothing has really changed at all. All I basically do is work. I'm either home or at work. Every now and then I'll bump into some people I once called friends at wal-mart but other than that the whole having no friends situation hasn't changed. Its weird. You can see certain people who were your friends and look at them totally differently. I saw some people a while back and when I looked at them I saw complete strangers. It hurt but I saw people who could care less about me and I could tell that the bond we had long ago was no longer there and no longer salvageable. It was like clouds clearing and letting the sun through. It was that clear and that fast to realize. I was sad when I realized it but then I remembered how easily they forgot about me a few years ago and would only remember my existance when they bumped into me or wanted to use my basement for a party. I saw that their lives were absolutely fine without me in it and from there I learned not to secretly want them to come around and suddenly want to see and be my friend again. I finally looked at them and realized I don't need them anymore and I'm more ok about it than i thought I would be. Then there are the people I bump into that I miss so much that I want to beg them not to leave and to just stay a little while longer or take me with them. The ones I used to be such good friends with that we knew all of eachothers secrets, desires, fears, and goals. Now I see those people and I hardly know anything about them anymore and it kills me. I wish I could see them and not have it be a little awkward. When I see them I feel so left behind and thats nobodys fault but my own and I know that. I feel like they all went off a created these lives that they enjoy having and when I hear their stories I can't help but feel sad because I wish I could have been there with them to expierence everything. Instead I'm here, in a free fall with no net and no one to catch me or even soften my fall. I'm at a point in my life where I'm desperate to find out just who I am and who I want to be but no matter how hard I try I just can't get there. Its hard going through life knowing you have no one to count on or lean on but yourself. I do it anyway though. You start to analyze you life when your birthday is coming up and you figure out that you are no where close to where you thought you'd be at this age. Well I'm going to go now. Back to my life, if you can even call it that. Til next time, stay zen.

♥ Good Day ♥

PS~ 3 Days until my 20th Birthday

1 Gave in| Let your darker side give in

Goin up to that spirit in the sky [05 Nov 2005|08:41pm]
[ mood | sad ]

So last night I had to do what I have been putting off for months. I had to put my dog down. Ginger had a good long life but it was still very hard. I mean I've had her since I was 3. I don't remember life without that dog in it. Its sad. I miss her. I keep going to check on her and talk to her but then I remember shes not there. Ok lets think about other things. I have to work on Thanksgiving. How dumb is that? I mean I only have to work 4 hours and I'll be out in time to make it down to my familys but still. Ok well I'm gonna stop now. The blub in here just blew so I might try and help my dad fix it. Wish me luck. Till next time, stay zen.

♥ Good Day ♥

Let your darker side give in

To old to trick or treat, to young to die [31 Oct 2005|06:33pm]
[ mood | tired ]

Happy Halloween all. I can't believe tomorrow is November 1st. So you know what that means. The birthday countdown will begin. Oh yes, it will begin. So basically I've been doing the same thing since I last updated. Which is working. Tomorrow I have to work 3:30-10. Yuck. Its gonna be so boring. Working alone is always boring. Oh well I get paid on thursday so its worth it... I guess. I didn't get to hang out with Nicole this week but we got to work together alot so that was fun. Especially when Dale walked in on us making fun of him. That was good stuff. And then Alex will walk by and say that we don't work at all. But we do. All he does is answer phones, I don't see him unpacking freight. Oh and buy the way Wal-mart is a hot spot for drama. Theres always soooo much of it. Who knew? Not me. Theres always some new drama when I get there. I get a day off and like 50 things happen. Ok well I'm gonna stop now. I want to enjoy the rest of my day off. So till next time, stay zen.

♥ Good Day ♥

Let your darker side give in

All I can say is that my life is pretty plain [22 Oct 2005|06:06pm]
[ mood | cold ]

I'm tired. I just got home from work an hour ago. I had to work from 8-5 today. I hate saturdays. I miss sleeping in on the weekend. Oh well. So lets see what have I been doing lately.... Basically working and hanging with Nicole. She stayed here wednesday and thursday because her electricity was turned off, long story. Oh and on thursday we went and got tattoos. Yes I finally got my first tattoo. Its a small one on my wrist. I like it. She got one in the same place but a different symbol. I saw Megan last night. I was so happy. I miss Megan. She showed me pictures her and her roomate took. Hot stuff. Ok well I'm gonna go now. Its cold up in this bitch. So til next time, stay zen.

♥ Good Day ♥

Let your darker side give in

Say it will be alright and I shall believe [17 Oct 2005|05:33pm]
[ mood | good ]

Lets see, what has been going on. I saw Laura last week. I was working and there she was. We talked for a while until someone told management that I had a "follower." So they made me make her leave. It was so nice to talk to her though. I miss her. I miss everyone I used to hang out with. And then on Friday I saw Evan and Suzi. I'm so happy I'm finally bumping into people I know while I'm working. I saw Jen yesterday too.I wish I saw everyone more. The basement has grown lonely. Yes it has feelings too. So I had a long weekend of working and today is my day off so I baked cookies. Halloween cookies. They are yummy. I tried to use that stupid itunes thing for my ipod and I can't figure out where all the songs are at. It keeps asking me if I want to buy entire albums and I only want some songs. Oh well I will try again. Ok I think I'm gonna go now because I'm not sure if I have anything else to say. Til next time, stay zen.

♥ Good Day ♥

Let your darker side give in

I wanna get lost in your rock & roll and drift away [10 Oct 2005|04:54pm]
[ mood | exhausted ]

Today is my day off. I'm glad too cuz I'm so very tired. This weekend felt like it would never end. I hate working. But it brings in the money so I must do it. I never get to work with Nicole anymore. That damn wal-mart changed my hours the day I was gonna get to work with her so now I probably won't work with her again til friday. Its nice to have a friend again. Oh yeah so I ordered myself an Ipod mini. I miss not having music to listen too. I think Jodi hates me. I know her mom does. Now I'm just blabbing and not making much sense to myself. I'm cooking a chicken pie. No the oven is cooking the pie I'm just taking the credit. Ok I'm gonna stop now. Til next time, stay zen.

♥ Good Day ♥

PS~ Happy belated Birthday Laura!!! I miss you.

1 Gave in| Let your darker side give in

Its been a hard days night [26 Sep 2005|04:46pm]
[ mood | relaxed ]

So today is my day off and I finally got some sleep. I was so tired cuz I worked late friday then had to get up to be there early saturday and then be there again on sunday. I heart days off. I got paid thursday. I've never made that much money on my own in one check. It was weird to actually have more than $30 in my bank account. I decorated for halloween already. I enjoy the decorating. Well I don't have much to say today so I thinks I will be going now. Til next time, stay zen.

♥ Good Day ♥

Let your darker side give in

Rose tints my world keeps me safe from my trouble and pain [17 Sep 2005|08:09pm]
[ mood | sick ]

So I got a job at crappy walmart in the shoe department. At least I get paid $8.20 an hour this time cuz I wasn't gonna do minimum wage again. I met some cool people though. My favorite is this girl Nicole. She's my age and work is so much more fun when our shifts are together. I'm so tired though cuz I'm doing 25-30 hours a week. I know it doesn't seem like alot but doing those hours after doing nothing but being home for two months can make you tired. I was supposed to do a nine hour shift today and one hour into my shift I got wicked sick and had to be sent home. I was the only one in shoes today so I felt so bad being sent home. And its extremely embarrassing getting sick at work. The only good thing about working eight or nine hour days is that I get an hour for lunch and I get to come home for it. The other night I was working and I saw Hope, Heather, and Laura. It was good to see them again. Well I think I'm gonna go have some tea and lay down cuz I'm working eight hours tomorrow. So till next time, stay zen.

♥ Good Night ♥

1 Gave in| Let your darker side give in

Project Bitching is now underway [02 Sep 2005|04:45pm]
[ mood | stressed to the max ]

I am so stressed right now that I could explode. Everything is just so frustrating. Nothing is easy anymore. I seriously can't take anymore of this shit. For some reason nothing I do is right. I'm doing something I don't even want to do but it makes no difference so why do I bother?

♥ Good fucking Day ♥

Let your darker side give in

Let the Sun Shine, Let the Sun Shine in, the sun shine in [19 Aug 2005|05:38pm]
[ mood | so tired i've gone crazy ]

Ok I'm tired and hungry so I'm gonna try and make this a quick update. So last Thursday I went to the midnight showing of Deuce Bigalow with Megan. It was so funny. I didn't know you could make up that many names for the word penis. I finally got to meet Megan's boyfriend. He is a very cool guy. And Suzi was there. I hadn't seen her in forever. I met some of Megan's friends and they are all cool and funny. Then after the movie I spent the night at Megan's. I missed that place. And when we got up the next morning her dog thought it would be cool to go outside, get all wet and jump on top of me where she then decided to take a nap. Ok so nothing happened all week after that til last night. I went with Megan to the midnight showing of The 40 Year Old Virgin. It was a good movie. Before the movie we all encountered a crazy lady who decided to yell at one of Megan's friends. She was a bitcharooniedoonie, so she didn't get any wal-mart cookies. After the movie we went back to her house to sleep and I ended up watching Jawbreaker til 4 in the morning and I only slept til 6. So I have only had 2 hours of sleep, but you know what? It was way worth it. I have so much fun with Megan and her friends. Ok well I'm gonna go cuz my daddy-o's home and maybe we will have some supper. Til next time stay zen.

♥ Good Day ♥

Let your darker side give in

Anyway the wind blows [10 Aug 2005|04:55pm]
[ mood | hot ]

So not much going on here. Its just been wicked hot in this house. I miss winter. I miss being able to eat and drink hot stuff without getting sweaty. Oh how I long for summer to be over. I like fall. I like being able to open my windows and not die of heat. Ok well thats enough of summer hate talk. Megan came over Monday night to chat for a little bit. And I'm finally getting to meet her boyfriend. Yessa. I'm spending the night at her house tomorrow, which is good cuz I haven't been to her house in forever. Well I'm gonna go now. I miss the giant fan in the living room. Till next time, stay zen.

♥ Good Day ♥

Let your darker side give in

Hhhheeeeyyyyy Aqualung [30 Jul 2005|04:48pm]
[ mood | zen ]

Today is my moms birthday so we went out for most of the day. We went to the bookstore and then to Nicole's Hallmark and some other places. I also got my second camera from TN developed. The pictures came out good. I hear the ice cream man! Ok that was off topic but thats how I am. Then I took my mom out to Yangtze for lunch. Not much of an eventfull day but it was nice. The weather is so nice. Its much better than 90 degrees and humid. Ok well I'm gonna stop rambling now. Till next time, stay zen.

♥ Good Day ♥

Let your darker side give in

Somewhere Beyond the Sea [23 Jul 2005|09:14pm]
[ mood | calm ]

I saw Wedding Crashers on Monday with Megan and Jen. Go see it. I loved it. Good stuff. I talked to Lauren this week too. She has now gotten the unfortunate calling problem that I used to have. Don't ask. You wouldn't want it. We're gonna get together sometime this week. Its gonna be kinda weird when she heads off to college next month. I mean shes always been only 3 houses away. It'll be strange but I'll learn to deal. Well I'm gonna go. I'm missing the end of the Sox vs Sox game. Till next time, stay zen.

♥ Good Day ♥

Let your darker side give in

Let Me Fall [17 Jul 2005|04:02pm]
[ mood | hot ]

So not much has been going on lately. I know, such a surprise. Last Saturday night I found my long lost friend Jodi Ferschke. I hung out with her and Scott for a couple of hours but I had to be home early cuz I had to get up early the next day. It was fun. Then on Sunday I went down to West Bridgewater MA for a family BBQ. It was alright. I enjoyed the driving through Boston. Its way pretty. Then the rest of the week nothing happened. Well I did get one of my cameras from TN developed. The pictures came out good. Lets see... I got a call from Megan today and we're going to see Wedding Crashers tomorrow. It should be good. I miss Megan I'm glad she called. Well I'm gonna go now. Its freakin hot in my house. Till next time, stay zen.

♥ Good Day ♥

Let your darker side give in

Bad Moon Rising [07 Jul 2005|04:43pm]
[ mood | stressed ]

Ok so to avoid being fired for not being able to go to work last week, and for the fact that I no longer have transportaion, I finally quit. So I just have to go in tomorrow a sign a form and I'm all done with Hot topic. That was the easy part. The hard part is finding a new job. So if anybody knows of any local places that are hiring and allow piercings please let me know. I really need this so please. Well I must go. I have to check the want ads and I'm in the middle of cooking. Till next time, stay zen.

♥ Good Day ♥

Let your darker side give in

I have returned [30 Jun 2005|04:34pm]
[ mood | exhausted ]

I got home last night and it was so nice to sleep in my own bed again. The only part that sucked was my plane got delayed on the way home. Other than that my trip wasn't bad. Meaghan was the same as I remember her and I got to meet the people she lives with. They were cool. Brittany and I were way too much alike so we spent most of our time laughing. And little Jesse James is way too cute. He has so much energy. When we went to the zoo it was like over 90 degrees out and I thought I was gonna die but then it started pouring out and I got completely soaked. I wore my Patriots hat in Wal-mart and got some dirty looks, that was fun. I'm so tired. I didn't sleep much while I was there. We would stay up late and get up early everyday. I just want to go take a nap and then sleep tomorrow but I can't. I have to find someway to get to work tomorrow. As of right now I don't have a ride, and I don't really care. I don't like my job and I don't wanna go... but I also don't want to get fired. But if I don't have a ride I don't have a ride, nothin they can do about it. I must venture out and find a new job. The places I've put in applications never want me so I dunno what to do. Oh well I must go now. I'm gonna have to call work and tell them I can't come in tomorrow and hgope they don't shoot me. Till next time, stay zen.

♥ Good Day ♥

Let your darker side give in

I'm leaving on a jet plane [24 Jun 2005|09:56pm]
[ mood | anxious ]

Ok so I'm leaving for TN early in the morning. I'm nervous about the whole plane thing. My flight is at 6:30am so I have to leave at like 4:30am. I'm gonna be a tired girl. I'm at Lauren's. On her laptop. I like it. Its purrty. I'm hanging out with her and Jake right now. We're gonna watch a movie. I think she just put in Harry Potter. I'm not going to stay much longer though. I should get some sleep cuz tomorrow's gonna be a long day. I hope I have fun there. I should. I'm not sure what else to write. I guess I will see you all when I return on Wednesday. Till next time, stay zen.

Goodbye All

Let your darker side give in

Time to Waste [21 Jun 2005|08:47pm]
[ mood | thirsty ]

So I actually get to work tomorrow. Unless I get a call telling me not to come in. To tell you the truth I wouldn't mind it this time. But I would have to go to the mall anyway though. So my brother was here Thursday night through Saturday afternoon. That was kinda cool. I went shopping Friday for Father's Day and Birthday crap for my dad. I got my own bank account too. Today I did my little shopping for travel size things to bring with me to TN. I like little travel size shampoos and toothpastes and stuff. It reminds me of when I used to go on the bandtrips. I can't believe that I leave in 4 days. I'm kinda nervous. I've never flown by myself before. Ok well I'm gonna go now. Till next time, stay zen.

♥ Happy 1st Day of Summer ♥

Let your darker side give in

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